Sigh, most of the people are giving me cold shoulder. Yea, like since I was born no one likes me (relatives). Or maybe everyone? I shouldn't be given birth by Mommy. She should just have 1 child will do. I'm always the extra one, everyone thinks so too. Whoever hates me, I know you're really happy to see this. Go ahead and say 'Duh, don't be dumb etc'. All kinds of negative & nasty comments. I don't mind. Just allow me to rant this very last time will do. Kamsahamnida. Things are going back as it should be. Why does the happy moments have to pass so fast? I'm sick and tired of crying, cos I don't think it's even worth it. I guess I should just forgive and forget bah. Have to change myself, in a sense that you'll feel I'm becoming another person.
I want to flee away from this sickening place. It gives me the urged to become angry, and this feeling sucks like wth only. I need to stop using vulgarities. As in not totally don't use, cos I know I can't. So maybe just don't use it so often. Only use it when it's a need to.
I really missed the fun we had had together. The time we spent together seemed to be so short. Although it's that only 2 years, but I seriously cherished every moment I spent with you. It's really a gift that's dedicated to me. You'll always be etched in my mind :-) Between, I dk who I'm talking about, ha ha. Which you isit?
Trying to cope living in the world of darkness, it's not as easy as you think so.
